This weekend, it was a grumpy moment for me.
I was very happy that I achieved something good on Friday and wanted to share my best moment with my hubby. I wanted to bring him to Korean Restaurant and enjoy the achievement-in-the-air. Then, I don't know how I got in a call and ended up to have our late dinner at other friends' proposal (which already over when we reached) and sat at the outside open air, hot & hazy environment to have a plate of tasteless and pricey spaghetti at Damansara Height.
It was totally spoilt my happy mood.
The next morning was a headache day because we have to go back to hometown-Seremban. My hubby was very excited about DAP dinner and talk show at Seremban especially the Superman speaker-Hew Kuan Yew. No matter teh countless times he watch Superman's political stand up comedy show over Youtube, he still buy ticket and go and support him. wft. =.="
After celebrating the night with his parents at Korean Restaurant (finally I had it), he drove me and his father to Rasah, Seremban to watch the show, again.
This is my first time seeing DAP made it like a carnival: Fireworks, Live Band, Grand Opening and invited other MPs to support this event. Heard that because of the MCA sent them an official invitation for debate to show off whose event could attract more people. It ended up that MCA event has to postpone due to funny reason: "other area have same dinner"; and DAP insisted to go on even without the MCA. I think MCA scare ya?
So we reached there about 830pm and the show Gang-Ho until 12pm. I wore the 1 inch heels and stand for 4 hours. Though it's not high but still made my back very pain for long hours. It was hot and hazy and many uncles like smoking too. I always wanted to tell this, if you are in the public place and having a big gathering, please do considerate other aunties or children. The air is already hazy and some more the bigger crowd are fighting for the fresh air. It really make us feel breathing difficulties.
So we finally back at 1230am, and I was totally tired and pissed off. How my weekend ended up like this? I should have gone for celebrating right? Ok, fine. I need a private space.
To let go the feeling, I sleep, cook, wash, read. I just want to figure out the inner feeling of myself. After a day spent with myself, I feel better now.
While reading the "big dictionary"-Steve Jobs, as my hubby said, I found this para resonated with me very much and I wish to share this with you:
The Search-Steve Jobs
Coming back to America was, for me, much more of a cultural shock than going to India. The people in the Indian countryside don't use their intellect like we do, they use their intuition instead, and their intuition is far more developed than in the rest of the world. Intuition is a very powerful thing, more powerful than intellect, in my opinion. That's had a big impact on my work.
Western rational thought is not an innate human characteristic; it is learned and is the great achievement of Western civilization. In the villages of India, they never learned it. They learned something else, which is in some was just as valuable but in other ways is not. That's the power of intuition and experiential wisdom.
Coming back after seven months in Indian villages, I saw the craziness of the Western world as well as its capacity for rational thought. If you just sit and observe, you will see how restless your mind is. If you try to calm it, it only makes it worse, but over time it does calm, and when it does, there's room to hear more subtle things-that's when your intuition starts to blossom and you start to see things more clearly and be in the present more. Your mind just slows down, and you see a tremendous expanse in the moment. You see so much more than you could see before. It's a discipline; you have to practice it.
Zen has been a deep influence in my life ever since. At one point I was thinking about going to Japan and trying to get into the Eihei-ji monastery, but my spiritual advisor urged me to stay here. He said there is nothing over there that isn't here, and he was correct. I learned the truth of the Zen saying that if you are willing to travel around the world to meet a teacher, one will appear next door.
My mentors come into my mind after reading this. If you follow my last year's posts, you will read a lot of my meditation practice and philosophical quotes. I'd say, it helps a lot on my present and become who I am now. Well, more to learn in coming way.
So does it resonates with you too?